I'm Not...

I'm not going to think about her

I'm not going to think about her
I'm not going to think about her anymore

I'm not going to think about the sound of her voice
I'm not going to think about the way she looked
I'm not going to think about the way her hair smelled
I'm not going to think about how she once helped me buy a new pet fish
I'm not going to think about how messy her makeup dresser was
I'm not going to think about how she always tucked her covers under the bed
I'm not going to think about how she always tried to steal the more comfortable pillow from me
I'm not going to think about how she once left her juice sitting in the windowsill and I spent most of my day killing ants
I'm not going to think about how she was really good at cooking Ramen noodles
I'm not going to think about how she would always double check herself in the mirror anytime she put on a new outfit
I'm not going to think about how she HAD to get coffee every morning otherwise she would be so cranky for the rest of the day
I'm not going to think about how she really hated the buzzer on my alarm clock
I'm not going to think about how she would grab for and hold my hand in public
I'm not going to think about how she would get horny in public places and pull me somewhere private so we could have sex
I'm not going to think about how she would root against me while I was playing video games
I'm not going to think about how she would giggle when I said something stupid
I'm not going to think about how she would come out at any time of night just to get a kiss from me
I'm not going to think about how she would give me the occasional back rubs
I'm not going to think about how she would tuck me in before she left me for the night
I'm not going to think about how she would wear those purple plaid flats she has, even if she was only going to the bathroom
I'm not going to think about how she looked when we talked on Skype
I'm not going to think about how she would always hug me like she never wanted to let go
I'm not going to think about what she looked like in just her skin
I'm not going to think about how she rested her head on my shoulder and cried when she needed to
I'm not going to think about how she would keep wiggling her body around until she felt comfortable in my arms before we fell alseep
I'm not going to think about how she would cuddle up next to me while we were watching movies
I'm not going to think about how she would sigh and moan in my ear as I kissed her neck
I'm not going to think about how she would go grocery shopping for me
I'm not going to think about the smooth, caramel skin of her back
I'm not going to think about what she looked like when I put that flower behind her ear
I'm not going to think about how excited she got when we watched Matilda
I'm not going to think about how it sometimes felt that we were the only two people on Earth
I'm not going to think about how for a long time it really seemed like it was going to work out
I'm not going to think about how I came to visit her and when she opened the door, sitting on her bed was a bag full of everything I had ever given her
I'm not going to think about whatever she may be doing right now
I'm not going to think about how she would always call me to wake me up for work
I'm not going to think about how she would ask me to clean her room or do a load of wash for her
But now she doesn't ask anymore
And so, she must have found somebody else to do it